Today is a special day. Today was my due date. For those of you reading that don't know, I had a miscarriage back in November. I was 9 weeks pregnant. God has been so faithful to comfort us as we mourned. I am so thankful that God prompted us to forgive Him as we left the doctor's office in tears and shock instead of celebration. I am so thankful I didn't have to go through the pain of bitterness and being angry at God on top of everything. (It's not that I have to forgive Him because God did something wrong, because He is completely good & He does no wrong.) His presence has surrounded us. He is faithful. He is good. He let us know even then that He was up to something bigger in our lives and that He would get glory/be glorified! He also spoke through Tim that He is FOR US! Of course we don't understand and there are so many questions, but our God knows and understands and He has the answers! And we trust Him. And He is more than enough.
I don't know how to put into words how my study of Psalm 126 in March 2008 ties into this, but to me it is so appropriate as I am living between the times... Remembering the past... God's faithfulness in the past... Looking toward the future harvest with hope..... Currently sowing the seed (the Word of God) - not eating it for immediate satisfaction, but planting it knowing it will then produce a harvest! (Applying God's Word to my reality!)
PSALM 126 (HCSB)
When the LORD restored the fortunes of Zion, we were like those who dream.
Our mouths were filled with laughter then, and our tongues with shouts of joy.
Then they said among the nations, "The LORD has done great things for them."
The LORD had done great things for us; and we were filled with joy.
Restore our fortunes, LORD, like watercourses in the Negev. (as streams renew the desert)
Those who sow in tears will reap with shouts of joy.
Though one goes along weeping, carrying the bag of seed, he will surely come back with shouts of joy, carrying his sheaves.
PSALM 126 (The Message)
A pilgrim song
It seemed like a dream, too good to be true,
when GOD returned Zion's exiles.
We laughed, we sang, we couldn't believe our good fortune.
We were the talk of the nations - "God was wonderful to them!"
GOD was wonderful to us; we are one happy people.
And now, GOD, do it again - bring rains to our drought-stricken lives.
So those who planted their crops in despair
will shout hurrahs at the harvest,
So those who went off with heavy hearts
will come home laughing, with armloads of blessing!
The following is my version of Psalm 126 and was written on March 5, 2008 while doing the Bible study "STEPPING UP - A Journey through the Psalms of Ascent" by Beth Moore.
Standing between the times
Remembering the great things you have done for me
Remembering the laughter, dancing, and glee
Looking back to where I've been
Petitioning You to do it again!
At Jesus Jam, you issued me
Into Your throne room when I was lonely
My troubles vanished, Cares were banished
Filled with such joy in Your presence!
In Jamaica, dancing wildly on the street
Worshipping You on the concrete
Again at Ridgecrest we meet...
You took the shackles off my feet!
Blessed ABUNDANTLY with Timmy!
Hallelujah for JABJA!
Been through the war, now family is restored
What wonderful gifts - These relationships!
I declare
You were there
You DO care
In my despair!
In the process...
On the journey...
Ever drawing me...
Setting me free!
Ever speaking...
Life to me!
Different seasons
Different themes
Revealing Your Word
Even a prophecy
Looking to the future with hope!
Don't want to just get by & cope.
Trusting You to bring the rain...
In the midst of despair & pain.
Standing in faith.
Even though it's hard.
Sowing in tears.
The ground is dry and hard.
Putting Your truth into practice
Focusing on YOU!
Taking thoughts captive!
Obeying what You say
Perservering every day
Forgiving for wrongs
Praising with songs
Not growing tired and weary
Trusting You when I don't see results immediately
Don't let me forget.
Keep me from fret.
Help me to wait.
You aren't ever late!
Bring the rain to water the seed!
My tears are added to grow the harvest indeed!
You spoke & said I'd be the mother of many.
I'm believing You for armloads of babies!
What a celebration at the restoration!
Face to the floor!
There's more in store.
I desire intimacy...
To walk with You closely.
At home with You.
Laughing, dancing, singing my intention...
Worshipping You without inhibition.
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